January Snow

I stood there with regret,
The wind to my back.
Thinking of you.
Am I on the right track?

Questions with no answers,
I thought that this would be easy.
How could you claim to love,
And yet still fucking hate me?

I saw a light in you.
I really,
Truly did.

How could I have been,
So naive,
And stupid?

You put that there,
That false glow,
And you just knew,
That I would never know…

How evil that you are,
To say that I am wasted time.
When I am here,
Stuck,
Wishing to rewind.




I have the audacity,
The heart and naivety.
To worry about you,
With love and generosity.

All the while you,
Are just much too busy,
Dragging my name,
And tainting a perfect memory.

Tears in my eyes,
I look to the ground.
The noise in my head,
Has no actual sound.

And it was then that I learned,
In the January snow,
How hard it is,
To both love and let go.