<?xml version="1.0" encoding="UTF-8"?><rss xmlns:dc="http://purl.org/dc/elements/1.1/" xmlns:content="http://purl.org/rss/1.0/modules/content/" xmlns:atom="http://www.w3.org/2005/Atom" version="2.0"><channel><title><![CDATA[The Human Condition Exhibition]]></title><description><![CDATA[Raw Verse, Real Reflections]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/blog</link><generator>RSS for Node</generator><lastBuildDate>Mon, 25 May 2026 03:59:04 GMT</lastBuildDate><atom:link href="https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/blog-feed.xml" rel="self" type="application/rss+xml"/><item><title><![CDATA[Hey:)]]></title><description><![CDATA[Dudes, I feel so… Light. I had so much pent-up… Everything. So. Much. Emotion. Now? I can let it go. I am at peace. I have cried from happiness twice today. I am so grateful. I am so blessed. I don’t feel angry anymore. I don’t feel ashamed. I don’t feel depressed. I just… I feel good. I feel so good. I feel so free. Even if there may be individuals dedicated to combing through my entire existence, that's alright. I'm cool. I’m happy:) So happy, in fact, that I have nothing else to say OH! I...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/__hey</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6a137cc7956853008c63c4e0</guid><pubDate>Sun, 24 May 2026 22:39:18 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/98d94d_3a42dba22e754797a10c05a3fc8598ea~mv2.jpeg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Malibu ‘92]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hello everyone! I wanted to bring something to your attention. I have given the band opportunities to do something meaningful, but they clearly will not be doing such a thing. As you may know, I had a mental health crisis. This was caused by an incredibly exaggerated response to repressed trauma. I was extremely afraid of someone, who I now realize, may have abused me. At the very least, one could conclude that it was coercion. Inebriated individuals are not able to consent. When I had been...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/rough-draft</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6a110b872485f7cac3961f42</guid><pubDate>Sat, 23 May 2026 09:47:19 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/98d94d_3de7c93d29c746d6ba5a748fa0f9d571~mv2.png/v1/fit/w_1000,h_351,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Emo Night Babyyyy]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey dudes! A friend of mine snapped these pictures of me when I was dancing at emo night. It was an important reminder that I can have fun and dance and let loose while also being completely sober! I’m so proud of myself:) I want to try posting more pictures here. I have overcome so much. I don’t have to feel disgusting and ashamed. I am cool and magnetic and beautiful and funny and smart. (You are, too, by the way) Catch you later <3]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/emo-night-babyyyy</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6a10a7181df5ec3671e80a73</guid><pubDate>Fri, 22 May 2026 19:02:52 GMT</pubDate><enclosure url="https://static.wixstatic.com/media/98d94d_21f8c8dcd1f14e6c96f02c5e0a1d5676~mv2.jpg/v1/fit/w_1000,h_1000,al_c,q_80/file.png" length="0" type="image/png"/><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Victim Blaming]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey dudes, what’s up? Today, I want to talk about victim blaming. As you know, I have written extensively about my episode of psychosis. Recently, I have also written about the podcast episode where my crisis was unfairly, and inaccurately, broadcast to thousands of people. I have tried to get the episode taken down, but it appears that my trauma isn’t enough to warrant that. What can you do? At least it’s a couple of years old. Still hurts, but there’s that. Well, unfortunately, I have some...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/victim-blaming</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6a0f257f996a3514d2ef80a8</guid><pubDate>Thu, 21 May 2026 15:52:44 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Dress &#38; Heels]]></title><description><![CDATA[Okay guys, I totally forgot to tell you this. I think it’s hilarious. Alright, here we go. So, my husband and I go to this wedding, right? Fanciest wedding I’ve ever been to. The ceremony was the most lavish thing that I’ve ever seen in my life. It was beautiful. I genuinely felt honored to be there. So, here comes cocktail hour. I don’t drink so it’s no big deal anyway. Plus, I was on call at one of the hospitals that I float to. I am literally just about to start taking cutesy pictures with...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/dress-heels</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6a0cfc94cc3b47e2888db6b0</guid><pubDate>Wed, 20 May 2026 00:31:14 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[RAINN]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey everyone. I hope that you're well. This blog post will include some heavy topics, so please bear with me. Through vigorous rounds and sessions of therapy, I have finally dissected my episode of psychosis. I know what brought me here. In the interest of free speech, I would like to describe the event to you. When I was younger, I was going through a domestic violence case. My ex boyfriend had assaulted me physically in front of all of my friends. He was arrested. This is how I learned how...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/rainn</link><guid isPermaLink="false">6a0cb1c1fb04a928fee0127f</guid><pubDate>Tue, 19 May 2026 19:13:51 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Something To Say]]></title><description><![CDATA[A little on the nose with that title, eh? Sometimes I just get the urge to write, and that's not always poetry. It is most of the time, but not always. I work for the next eight days, which will be absolutely exhausting. They are all twelve-hour shifts too, so wish me luck! I have been feeling so much pent-up energy lately. There's a lot of grief in there. There's a lot of anger. There's a lot of loss. One of the problems with PTSD is chronic rumination. It often runs hand-in-hand with...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/something-to-say</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69fa35a8e6cd293e4377399f</guid><pubDate>Tue, 05 May 2026 18:53:42 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[[untitled]]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey there, hope you're well. I really need to stop proclaiming that I will update this every week. Going forward, I think that I'll just update this when I feel that I have something to say. Right now, I think that I do have a lot to say. I am typing this on my new computer and keyboard. It all feels very official. I have a problem with treating myself to nice things [insert survival instinct here]. I've been trying to be better about that. I deserve nice things and experiences. It doesn't...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/untitled</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69f4c0cdedf5696920d2039b</guid><pubDate>Fri, 01 May 2026 15:55:59 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Yo Yo Yo, What’s Poppin’?]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey there, hope you’re well! I, for one, am doing much better… ish. I am back at work and finally have a proper diagnosis, which is cool. I am on appropriate medication that makes me feel, gasp, normal. God, it’s like coming up for air. I haven’t felt normal in years. I’ve been plagued with paralyzing anxiety and crippling depression for so very long. I didn’t realize that I didn’t have to feel that way. I didn’t realize that the medications that I had previously been taking were having such...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/yo-yo-yo-what-s-poppin</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69e37b20cee1d9a6a6758162</guid><pubDate>Sat, 18 Apr 2026 13:00:50 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Sometimes, It's Okay Not To Share Everything]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey guys, what's up? I was recently in the hospital for mental health reasons. I won't get into the details of it, but I attempted something very scary. I'm doing a bit better now, but I wanted to talk about something today. If you've been reading along, you'd know that I've had a genuine episode of psychosis. You can scroll to my earliest blog posts to get the full scoop, but it sucked. I had a very public episode and plastered my conspiracy theories all over my social medias. Everyone knew...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/sometimes-it-s-okay-not-to-share-everything</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69d5047310427b2b31493bb9</guid><pubDate>Tue, 07 Apr 2026 13:32:59 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Another Week (And Other Extreme Sports)]]></title><description><![CDATA[Wow, hey. What's up? How's it going? Good, I hope. Me? Ha. Well. A lot has happened that I haven't really gotten to talk in-depth about. Let's start with Baltimore, yeah? Wow, what a trip. I had never ventured into a city on my own before, much less after psychosis, so this was an ambitious undertaking in a variety of ways. I've written about my feelings about that elsewhere, but I was terrified. I was so scared of going to my first ever book conference and marketing myself, my book, and my...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/another-week-and-other-extreme-sports</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69c07d200160b7de315255da</guid><pubDate>Mon, 23 Mar 2026 01:12:42 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[It's Time For... The Weekly Check-In, Isn't It?]]></title><description><![CDATA[Wow, I have so much to write about. I have some incredibly ambitious plans in the works. I really cannot tell you about it, I'm so sorry. They say to speak things into existence, but I tend to be more reserved in my private affairs. Like a secret entrusted to a dandelion, I cannot jinx this. For awhile longer, it must stay in anonymity. It must simply be free to form and bud on its own. If I am successful, I'll tell you more about it. I feel empowered. I feel that, if anyone can do this, it...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/it-s-time-for-the-weekly-check-in-isn-t-it</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69b725e6b77817bc0c9dccbe</guid><pubDate>Sun, 15 Mar 2026 21:36:48 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Update]]></title><description><![CDATA[Wow, I have so much to write about. If I’m honest, I’ve been putting off writing because it has felt like such a monumental task. I went to Baltimore. It was my first solo trip into a city. I was terrified that something bad would happen to me, but it didn’t. I explored Baltimore and DC all on my own. I did everything I set out to do and more. The trip was a smashing success and I am so proud of myself for going so far out of my comfort zone. It was terrifying, but I am so glad that I did it....]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/_update</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69b180a0d550596893c8b9fe</guid><pubDate>Wed, 11 Mar 2026 14:53:41 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[AWP 2026]]></title><description><![CDATA[Wow, hey! I am writing you today from my booth at the Association of Writers &#38; Writing Programs Conference and Bookfair in Baltimore, Maryland. As of five minutes ago, the conference has officially started. People are milling about and starting to file in to the convention center. I am fucking terrified. I was really worried about the prospect of not being able to use my materials for the setup because they can be considered "flammable". However, when I was talking to my husband, he brought...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/awp-2026</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69a98d25a29c2f9814785b42</guid><pubDate>Thu, 05 Mar 2026 14:18:30 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Downtown Baltimore]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hello, esteemed readers! I made it to Baltimore! Yay! I spent all of yesterday strolling around the city. I have never travelled to a city on my own before, but it’s going well so far! The first thing that I did was visit the Peabody Library. It is regarded as the most beautiful library in the United States, and with good reason. I’ll attach a photo, but I do fear that it doesn’t quite do it justice. The space is massive and it is humbling to have been in such a sacred literary space....]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/downtown-baltimore</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69a84b7eb9582c4b5c8c6637</guid><pubDate>Wed, 04 Mar 2026 15:16:07 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[I Am Terrified]]></title><description><![CDATA[I am terrified for this conference. It is going to be a professional writing conference. I don't belong there! I'm just some girl that wrote a book. That doesn't automatically mean that my work is fit for such scrutiny. I'm not sure that I can handle it, honestly. I have been chasing acknowledgement for my book since I released it. I thought that, surely, my vulnerability was potent enough to put you into my head. My heart. Surely that was worth something, right? Surely that was captivating?...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/i-am-terrified</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69a5dc27f00dba1e65384a8c</guid><pubDate>Mon, 02 Mar 2026 19:55:18 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[I Skipped Therapy]]></title><description><![CDATA[So, I’m an anxiously avoidant person. When I get overwhelmed or feel threatened in any way, my instinct is to run away to safety. I isolate. I retreat inside myself. In light of recent events and freshly-realized trauma, I have been trying my hardest to keep the shame at bay. I fear that it won yesterday. I woke up in the morning an hour before my scheduled therapy session. I stayed in bed and just.. watched the time inch closer and closer to the top of the hour, and with it, my appointment....]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/i-skipped-therapy</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69a4bd9a8676163b5c22626b</guid><pubDate>Sun, 01 Mar 2026 22:33:42 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[I Don't Know Who I Am Anymore]]></title><description><![CDATA[My life can be very clearly divided into before and after psychosis. I used to be so full of life and motivation. I was in the best shape of my life. I read 52 books a year. I enjoyed hiking and spending time with friends and traveling. Now, nothing brings me joy. I can't find it in me to do much of anything. Why did this happen to me? How do I make it stop?]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/i-don-t-know-who-i-am-anymore</link><guid isPermaLink="false">699dee8d8f4f3ef74a9c00b3</guid><pubDate>Tue, 24 Feb 2026 18:32:15 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[Wow, hey.]]></title><description><![CDATA[Hey, me again. I'm continuing this mindless banter and, I've found, I have a lot to write about today. This thing happens to me now, since my episode, where I feel so overwhelmed with terror. I get paralyzed because of it. I get scared of driving. I get scared of going to work. I get scared to be around anyone at all. I spend most of the time in my head. I guess that's what happens when you are lonely beyond compare. Because of my erratic behavior while I was sick, I don't have many friends...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/wow-hey</link><guid isPermaLink="false">699de3eb8f4f3ef74a9be573</guid><pubDate>Tue, 24 Feb 2026 18:06:49 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item><item><title><![CDATA[I Am Wrecked]]></title><description><![CDATA[Check out my latest poem for the full scoop of what’s going on in my heart and head… or I can just post it here. It’s pretty self-explanatory. This poem is about repressed trauma and the earth-shattering realization that it does, in fact, exist. This is a story about repressing a miscarriage experience for years. The subject of this poem experiences a delayed trauma response from a situation that left her agonizingly and brutally broken. This poem is about being used, but stepping into your...]]></description><link>https://www.lizzyabrendel.com/post/i-am-wrecked</link><guid isPermaLink="false">69953da2a8ff0d3b0981b000</guid><pubDate>Wed, 18 Feb 2026 04:24:35 GMT</pubDate><dc:creator>lizzyabrendel</dc:creator></item></channel></rss>